Like Some Cat from Japan

Double Take

That would be me eating cake.

Yesterday was my grandma’s birthday party. I woke up feeling like I had something to look forward to, but I was very anxious because parties revolve around… food. I started my day off with one cheese and one cherry blintz with some Greek Gods yogurt (instead of sour cream) and strawberry syrup drizzled over it. I had the rest of the yogurt sweetened with strawberry protein powder on the side.

There was no time to lounge around after breakfast like I usually do, I had some coffee and rushed to put on some mascara and head to the super market with my mom. I finally found Weetabix! I’ve heard people rave about that cereal and I’ve been looking to try some for myself for a looong time. I also purchased real, real bread because I feel ready to add that into my diet again (I’ve eaten nothing but Ezekiel bread for over a year because it felt “safe”). My mom and I must have been out for 4 hours because by the time we got out of HEB, I was pretty hungry. I had a PB&J sandwich on Nature’s Path whole wheat bread. See that AlpSnack behind the sandwch? I ended up not being able to eat that because it tasted like what I imagine bird food tasting like. I picked that up at the market excitedly because it looked yum but it gets a big thumbs down from me. I had to spit the first bite out.

I was busy making the apple spice cake between lunch and dinner, and all I had was a Carnation Instant Breakfast while I made the cake. I was soo busy helping out for the party. Dinner above: Chicken Breast & pita with hummus. My brother and I ate at around 6, way before the guests came. So when the guests arrived at 7:30 and began eating at 8:45, I had a Brown Cow cherry vanilla cream top yogurt. This is truly the best yogurt brand I have ever had.

I played guitar hero with the kids and worried so much about eating cake. I was thinking about not having any and I had freaked out earlier in the day and didn’t eat much up until cake time, so I was in a tough position about whether to choose eating lots of healthy food to make my calorie count or blow it all on one dessert. It is funny how I know I have to gain weight, and yet I still worry about what I can eat.

carrot cake I made with the candles in it

you couldn't see the frosting layer too well on the inside like i had hoped >.<

That's the apple spice cake I worked so hard on. It turned out great!

I’m very happy to say that my cakes were a hit. I ended up eating half a slice of carrot cake myself! I met all my calorie needs and had cake on top of that. My whole family was really proud and took pictures of me eating it, hahaha. After more partying with the family and friends, I had a Think Thin brownie crunch bar.

The night ended with my passing out from exhaustion on my bed. End.

Today-

I woke up from a really silly dream about my best friend becoming famous for writing a book called “Begging you, Syriana”. Hm. Interesting.

Breakfast! I got to try out my Weetabix with some peaches, blueberries, and a dark chocolate Carnation Instant Breakfast.

I told myself from the moment I got up that I wasn’t going to let yesterday’s indulgences affect today’s eating. Indulging one day does not make it okay or healthy to starve the next. However, I was very depressed today and I am not going to lie, because I was like this, I did not do anything today. I just kinda sat around and painted sad things. At least I have a new painting on my wall.

Once again, my appetite has decreased (due to depression) and I didn’t eat until about 2 :/ I love the soups at Kroger so I had a beef noodle soup (I did NOT know that existed) and a really yummy raspberry filled dark chocolate bar. Mmm.. chocolate can help a sad soul, that’s for sure. I was still hungry after this and had some Honey Oikos greek yogurt and some almonds.

A couple of hours later, I went for a walk with my dad and ate some string mozzarella cheese. During our walk we discussed theories of life. One theory was that we were some other race’s waste and that our waste was born into its own world to live like us and that life was a long chain of “waste” (AKA poop. but it is only called “poop” in our world and that our “poop” becomes its own race in its own world. Just like we are another race’s “poop” but we are called humans in our world. Does that make sense to you?) Another theory was that we were another race’s video game, like the Sims. It was a very, very deep talk :p

I played guitar hero when I got home and needed some comfort food to lighten my mood. I had another PB&J sandwich with milk and a cookies n’ cream Delight Luna Bar. Having the PB&J on normal bread rather than on Ezekiel bread brings back memories of elementary school when I was worry and care free. I am still obsessed with my Ezekiel bread though, the only negative about it is that I only love it toasted, which limits me a bit on the sandwich front.

I just finished watching a very scary movie called Slaughter. It was really good and one of the “8 films to die for”. I believe that was a film festival. Anyways, Bedtime snack: oatmeal with strawberry protein powder, strawberries, and a crumbled strawberry crumble Luna Bar.

Dude, oatmeal is seriously like a blank canvas waiting to be painted with toppings. I love it. Sweet dreams everyone!

<3 Karina