I Have No Degree in Preschool
November 12, 2009 at 1:01 am | Posted in Uncategorized | 26 CommentsTags: ballet, betsy's health food, bluebonnet protein, carob, chocolate, clif builders bar, couscous, cranberries, ED, ezekiel, french vanilla crisp bar, health food, healthy, hemp, meal ideas, oatmeal recipes, protein powder, recover, smart balance, waltz of the snowflakes
Once again, another marvelous day has come to an end. I’m a bit surprised at what good luck I’ve had these last two days. Typically, my mood swings all over the map with ED thoughts ebbing in and out of my head. But not so much lately.
And I must say, I have no complaints.
When I woke up at 9:30 A.M., the house was empty. The house was empty and desolate except for a young man playing ‘Ghostbusters’ on his playstation and two cats. One of those cats lay on my head.
“WHAT!” I cried out, unhappy that the first thing I felt in the morning was a wad of Sanura’s fur in my mouth. <—uncomfortable.
I forgave my cat and cuddled with her for about fifteen minutes, before I escaped to the kitchen to whip up some breakfast.
Tapping into my inner rebel, I chose to diverge from my beloved oatmeal and gingered up the morning with a small feast:
2 slices of toasted hemp bread slathered with Smart Balance, a mozzarella string cheese, Oikos with cranberries, half a chopped apple, and a kiwi with a comforting mug of hot chocolate.
After breakfast, I read up on many blogs… with my booty on a chair… most of the time. I personally think I did really well today with trying be seated more and existing as the “couch potato” my nutritionist wants me to be. She insists that it is crucial that ballet be the only exercise I get in a day, but ED wishes I could do more.
But what ED says is irrelevant, because his opinion doesn’t cut any ice.
Lets gang up on ED and taunt him together, shall we?
ED, You are a scum sucking, brat faced jerk. No one gives a rat’s a** about what you have to say or order us to do. We are the writers of our own stories, not you.
Don’t you feel great!? In this case, bullying does make us feel better about ourselves.
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Okaay, I couldn’t resist. I had to have some oats.
Originally I wanted to make Mitri’s “3 C’s Oats” to a T, but couldn’t find my bag of carob chips anywhere at the last minute. After throwing a small tantrum due to heart break, I remembered my dear Maggie’s vanilla protein oats and decided to hook up her oats with Mitri’s so that they could make a tasty baby:
1 packet of oatmeal cooked in coconut milk & vanilla whey protein powder, 1/4 c. cottage cheese, shredded coconut, and crushed almonds.
On the side of their delicious offspring, I had carrots and hummus.
I was really impressed with the flavor of the vanilla protein powder I used. It reminded me of a french vanilla crisp Pria Bar, which I used to LOVE to death and swear on. What I especially loved about this protein powder was that it was free from Betsy’s Health Food.
Once lunch was over, I discovered a video that my beautiful Maya recorded for me on Facebook. It made my entire day! That girl is so sweet and I love her to bits, so I made her a silly little video in response.
When snack time jumped out at me from around the corner, I prepared a petite peanut butter sandwich on cinnamon raison Ezekiel Bread with blueberries and a glass of soy milk.
Ballet/Nutcracker rehearsal was psychotic. We did class until 7, and I’d planned on staying for the Waltz of the Snowflakes rehearsal until 8:15. All of a sudden, my stressed out instructor told us Snowflakes was cancelled tonight but that we would be working on Act I Angels instead after the party scene.
….
OKAY, so I took a seat and watched children, dolls, and mice parade around the studio as though they were at a party or something (:p). Then, I find out I have to stay until 9 P.M. and literally run to the supermarket across the street to pick up a Clif Builders Bar because clearly, I would not be eating dinner at an appropriate time.
Once I returned to the studio and gobbled up my chocolate Builders Bar, my instructor nonchalantly informed me that I could go home because we would not be rehearsing Angels anymore. Argh. This always seems to happen!
Regardless of how nettlesome the situation was, I am very proud of myself for the flexibility I demonstrated tonight. It just goes to show that ED can’t control me! And the dinner that I prepared when I got home was fantastic:
3/4 c. couscous, butternut squash, green beans, almond butter, and maple syrup seasoned with nutmeg, pumpkin pie spice, cinnamon, and salt.
UTTER HEAVEN.
*******
Anyhoo, I just finished skyping with my mother, who happens to be upstairs, and am now consuming a ginger snap Larabar with milk in order to meet my calorie goals. ED tried to pull the “you had a late dinner and aren’t hungry” card on me, but I showed him who’s boss: ME.
Before I express my goodnight wishes, I’d like to share today’s truth to celebrate Maggie’s Truth Week: I really do believe that I have it in me to rebel against this disorder and am shocked that I have found it difficult in the past because I, Karina Pinzon, got kicked out of preschool due to unruly behavior. Back in the day, when I first began preschool, there was this little curly-haired redhead boy whose hair I would always pull. Hard. When the teacher put me in time out and took my toy away, I told her off. Bad. 
Well, off to bed I go, beautiful people. Goodnight!
P.S. I replied to quite a few questions asked through comments in my last post, so please check back. I am still unsure of what the best way to reply to blog comments is. How do you guys do it?
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your breakfast had me going bananas it looks so good, it would never look that good it i tired to remake your breakfast
all the best
Comment by jessica— November 12, 2009 #
All the colors~ *_* So bright and lovely! Totally with you on bullying stupid disordered thoughts. It’s fun to be sadistic sometimes >:D By the way… I want to eat your dinner. Utter deliciousness.
Comment by candice— November 12, 2009 #
hey you
i mean, i did the sugarplum pas de deux in germany, but i never got to perform it.. it’s sad. i’ve always wanted to do it!
for replying to comments, i usually tag my reply on to the end of the comment i leave on the other person’s blog. sometimes i feel it makes so much more sense to just click ‘reply’ though, except often people don’t check back. anyways, that’s what i usually do.
i am so happy to hear that you were able to be so flexible at dance tonight! yay for you
so what exactly are you dancing in the nutcracker this year? are we going to get to see some pictures or anything? did you know, that for as long as i’ve been dancing and for as much as i’ve done, i’ve never done nutcracker??? i know
have a good day tomorrow love
xo
Comment by glambaa— November 12, 2009 #
Love that story of you in preschool! That rebel is still in there, you just need to listen to her more!
Comment by mayapamela— November 12, 2009 #
BWAHAHA. You. Pulling hair. Kicked out of preschool. Just when I thought you couldn’t get any cuter… <3
Karina, you make me miss ballet all over again! I haven't done it in years, but I remember the tedium of waiting during rehearsals…and the feel-good after practices! Well done for your flexibility on eating the bar:) I'm sure that Clif was yum…I know your dinner looks (and tastes?) fantastic!
xoxo
Comment by Rachel— November 12, 2009 #
Hahahah that little confession made me laugh! Sounds like something I’d do!
Oh I love being a major bitch towards my ED, gives me some self esteem, its encouraged bullying! heheh
That food looks amazing, and I have done the whole skyping a family member hahah
xx
Comment by Katie— November 12, 2009 #
KARINA! my lovie!
and to bully our eating disorders! LOVE that idea, i am gonna go yell at my ED right now ! ha..he is such an ass :/
okay i am so proud of u for so many things as usual! u showed ed who is THE BOSS!
yOur hemp toast breekie looks so good and good job for going outside ur usual breekie bowls and having thaT! so inspiring, i too am going to do so!
i know how ED is screaming that u must exercise more than ballet, but it isnt safe for ur body and mind-set, u know? as much as i want to go on a jog, etc…i know i will feel like i let ed win. BUt you are doing so great and sometimes just sitting and layin low is nice, but i know that u struggle with needing to always be moving etc..most of the day, as do i too…but we both should treat our precious bodies as temples and take a cat nap one of these days.
OMG UR VIDEO on FB omg it made my life!!! no joke u are the cutest ever <3 <3 <3 ahh i wanted to jump into my laptop and hug u and then go, shop and eat some marzipan haha! funfun! we would have so much fun if i lived near u
love u more than u know my lil cutie!
xxxxxxxo
maya
p.s ur eats the couscous dish looks and sounds like bliss in a bowl!
ohh and I TOO was sooo mean in kindergarten omg i pulled my best friend Katie's pants down infront of the whole class
lol..and me and eliza started a club and wouldn't let anyone in unless they had lost more than 2 teeth or something and omg…in 2 nd grade i scratched some boys hand on the bus and went to the principal the next day and it was horrible 
we are so silly, we would have been like that X in the old days, me u eliza bullies haha…who would have thought? lol..BUT it shows we have it in us to fight and kick some asssss in the anorexia dept. rigth? 
xox
Comment by maya— November 12, 2009 #
Karina lovie!
okay first of all omg that preschool story, i did the same freakin thing haha okay well it was in kindergarten and i was so mean(can you believe that?!) i remember starting a club with Maya and wouldn’t let anyone in haha… and i Maya and i hurt some kid a meany kid on the bus got in so much trouble!…and ha i remember throwing away my lunch lol…(sign?) lol jk, and getting in trouble and saying to the teach Fuck you! so funny i was like the tiniest thing ever haha! and omg i got in such bad trouble haha so funny
and love Maggie’s truth week so amazing and such a great idea!
hang in there with the exercising, ballet is enough lovie, i know your ed is telling you you must do more, you and i both know less exertion is better now to help our bodies use the food/energy/nourishment
for other things like rebuilding our bodies, organs etc…
and i am so proud of you for getting that bar, when you thought the dance class was going to be extended! i am so proud of you! that shows how strong and responsible you are for your own recovery.
and by the way love that dinner looks so delicious, must make that!
all your eats look amazing as usual look fab 
“ED, You are a scum sucking, brat faced jerk. No one gives a rat’s a** about what you have to say or order us to do. We are the writers of our own stories, not you.”
LOVE that girly! you are just too inspiring for words, and i love waking up to read your posts, always makes me so motivated and i love you to bits.
xx
Eliza
PS: that video on Maya’s FB was so cute, you are amazing!
Comment by eliza— November 12, 2009 #
Oat addict!
Well, I am so glad that you are kicking ED’s ass!I am happy to see you go from being low and coming back stronger.And being strong doesn’t mean never falling, it means getting back up and trying again when you do.And you are definitely one strong ladyy.
Namaste
Comment by Robot— November 12, 2009 #
Well, at least you got to try cc in your oats!: When I wanted to make Mitri’s 3C’s oatmeal, I saw that my cc went bad
Lol too funny your story…I used to say bad words to my teacher too when I was young, but it was in chinese so she couldn’t understand.
xoxo
Vanilla
Comment by Vanilla— November 12, 2009 #
I think the best way is to reply to them on their own blog….that way you don’t chance having them miss your response!!
I also friended you on facebook…I hope you don’t mind! You are extremely inspirational to me, and I really want to make sure you’re aware of that =]
Comment by Laura— November 12, 2009 #
you totally kicked ED with those words! and that’s good! becoming stronger and independent can only be done with loud and powerful moves like these.
i am so proud of karina for coming out of the black hole that anorexia creates!!
loads of love from me
xoxo
Comment by crazylittlethingneela— November 12, 2009 #
I’m still trying to figure out how to reply back on comments too!! Email doesn’t work for me either. Let me know
Comment by Yasmin— November 12, 2009 #
Hahaha that is TOO FUNNY — I got kicked out of preschool too!!! (Well, combination of being kicked out and my being pissed at my teacher so I dropped out.)
Your dinner looks positively gorgeous… I’m going to have to bookmark that. And it is amazing that you were so flexible; I find it so hard to have plans changed at the last minute, especially when they involve a pesky you can’t eat that, because you might end up eating again in a short while voice!! But you did it, so good for you!
As for replying to comments, I usually use email; there’s no way to know for sure that the person to whom you’re replying will check back and see the answer!
<3 <3
Comment by blueeyedheart— November 12, 2009 #
I LOVE all the fighting ED in this post! Keep it up and ED will become weaker…weaker…and will go away! You deserve it!
(I usually reply in a comment on that persons blog, or by e-mail)
xxx Julia (Taste of Living)
Comment by julia— November 12, 2009 #
Your truth is adorable
I’ve always looked at you as a fighter and a rebel against ED so its no surprise 
Love that my protein oats had a baby with Mitri’s haha, you make me laugh!
Maggie
Comment by maggie— November 12, 2009 #
that new breakfast looks aweeeesome! way to be a rebel- i love it! i know it is so hard being a couch potato but being still for a little bit is so worth being healthy in the long run-and being able to do whatever you want..keep going strong!
Comment by kbwood— November 12, 2009 #
Just in reply…I usually overcook them and I don’t add any extra liquids. It works nicely on an upset stomach…sometimes I just want my oats warm but very raw..ya know?
Maggie
Comment by maggie— November 12, 2009 #
i ususaly just reply to them on their own blog! =D
hah your post just put a smile on my face. thanks.
and clif builder bars….LOVE THE CHOCOLATE FLAVOR!
Comment by traynharder23— November 12, 2009 #
So many beautiful dishes!! I love the couscous and squash mixture. I want to try it!! Maybe not with green beans though…that might be the ONE vegetable I don’t love.
Oh, and I totally am confused about replying to comments too. Can’t make up my mind on how to do it!
Comment by Tina— November 12, 2009 #
E.D.’s the only “person” I’d ever beat up. I’d like to throw a few punches at his face and maybe do some serious damage. ;D
Oh man, I was bad when I was little too. I used to talk to much in class and “flirt” with the boys; plus I was a bad, dirty liar. I think my parents are relieved I’ve finally grown up!
Comment by Delilah— November 12, 2009 #
screw ED – he doesn’t know what he is talking about anyways.
need to get my hands on some hemp bread – I tried some hemp seed bagels and they were fantastic!
Comment by Peanut Butter Bliss— November 12, 2009 #
Love love LOVE Larabar Ginger Snap. But then again, I’m biased. I love just about anything Larabar. Lol.
OOh and I so enjoyed the good bout of bullying against ED. Felt wonderful! Probably hurt its ego now but be prepared if ED comes back with a little more muscle next time though. But I know you’re going to be even stronger than it will ever be so keep fight fight fighting like a champion and you’ll win like one too!!
xx
Comment by nattietan— November 12, 2009 #
You are such a rebel, getting kicked out of preschool! haha. I was always the good little girl. But omg I had the meanest kindergarten teacher. She wouldn’t let me bring in my own left-handed scissors so I had to rip out everything since I had trouble with the right-handed scissors. My projects looked like crap lmao. OH and if anybody ever made a mistake on anything, they had to throw out their work and go sit in the corner and read a book. Even though most of the kids couldn’t read yet. My dad was pretty pissed off at her, lol. oh childhood.
I have such a hard time adapting to situations where I won’t be eating at an acceptable time, so props to you for getting the Clif bar, and also for having something once you got home! I’m always like “well I’ll just eat when i get home…dinner at 10pm is no biggie.” Then I have to eat my night snack too to get my cals in and I feel uncomfortably stuffed.
I know you have it in you to rebel against ED!
Comment by Stacey— November 13, 2009 #
YAY Karina! Stir the inner rebel in you! I love the pre-school you…you sound like me! I used to pick fight in the playground for fun. I was a vicious little bitch! now let’s use our viciousness for good, huh?
As for commenting, I do not reply in my own comment thread, because most likely the person is gonna forget about her comment and never check back. So I’d just be wasting my time. For me, I reply by email. Sometimes, in their own blogs since I read their blogs anyway.
Comment by burpexcuzme— November 13, 2009 #
girl i LOVE your blog and i can’t wait to keep reading more!
i would love it if you could check out mine as well
jenna
Comment by Jenna— November 14, 2009 #