My Friend, The King

If you asked me what I came into this world to do, I will tell you:

I CAME TO LIVE OUT LOUD.

Yoohoo! Hi there! I am in a brilliant & fantastic mood right now as I have had a swell day. It is amazing how ONE person treating you differently can make all the difference in the world. My mood swings are driving me nuts, though! I woke up at 7:30 AM this morning… Ohhh I was so tired. I really am over-spoiling myself by waking up at 9:00 AM most mornings. I am going to be getting a real reality check once I have to get back to school in the fall. But lets not talk about that, because THIS school year hasn’t even ended! I had the best tasting breakfast that I have had in a while and it definitely contributed in making my day nicer.

The Epic Brekkie (pictured above):

• 1/2 c. Ezekiel Golden Flax Cereal
• Oikos Greek yogurt
• Raisins
• Pistachios
• Walnuts
• Frozen Strawberries (warmed up in the microwave in a separate bowl and then poured onto the mixture)

“Karina, just study for your history test, take it and then you can take the rest of the day and tomorrow off,” said my mother. Hold it.. what!? Did my mom really say that today or did I just have a really trippy dream? Nope, she really did say that. Finally, I was given the freedom to rest. Life really should not be all about being perfect and dedicating my life to school, especially when my main focus is my health: both mental and physical.

As I was studying for my test, the door bell rang. I rolled my eyes thinking it was that lady who always comes over to make my mom sign papers about god knows what again. When I heard the door knob turn and creak open, my brother started crying: “Ava, Ava!” Why would Ava, my mom’s friend, come over when she should be at work? When I peaked my head over the stair rail, I realized that my brother was not saying “Ava, Ava”, he was saying “Emma, Emma!” You couldn’t even begin to imagine how ecstatic I was to see my best friend, who came to see me the second she was released from school for her summer vacation. It made me so happy to see that someone out there remembers and thinks about me, even while I am never present. She is one of the only friends who has made a true effort to be there and support me at all times, and I thank her so much for that. She really put some hope about our society back into me.

Want to know what I had for lunch? Do you need a close up? Yes! I had a #8 at Burger King! I, Karina, had a Tendergrill Chicken Sandwich on white bread at Burger King. You see, my mom, brother and I didn’t have time to eat at a sit-down restaurant since we were running late for my dietitian appointment, so we had to pick a fast food restaurant and Burger King was the closest one to us. I ate there with basically no problem. Like a normal person in a special situation. Sure, I ordered the sandwich sans mayo and eyed the sandwich over for any blobs of fat, but I made myself eat it and I am so proud of myself.

I spoke to my nutritionist and sadly, my weight still remains a mystery. *sigh* I’ll learn to live with it though. We also discussed my goal weight and I can’t say that I am fully comfortable with the weight she suggested, but I’m considering it and keeping an open mind. Unfortunately, the weight I was hoping for is still underweight for my height. She said that I have continued gaining, at the minimum rate that she likes but still gaining nonetheless, and it pisses me off that sometimes I can see this weight gain staring me back from the mirror’s reflection. “You’re gaining health, Karina. You’re gaining health.”

My pre-swim snack was Fage 2% topped with 2 chopped dates and walnuts. I no longer sweeten my yogurt with syrups anymore because my tongue has become a warrior who can handle the greek yogurt’s tartness. Heck yeah!

I swam with my dad and brother in our back yard and we all really had the time of our lives. I can’t even remember the last time that I felt that carefree. This school year really needs to finish up quickly so that I can feel this way more often because I feel as though I could really improve without all this stress. Stress=Restriction. If that is so, then why do I need to add it into my life? Absolutely no logic in that.

By the time I was out of the pool and out of the shower, mom was already home and had my sushi in the fridge. I changed things up from my usual California Roll and asked her to order me a Brown Rice Spicy Tuna Roll. I really wanted to avoid eating any white rice after that white bread I had at lunch. >.<Holy Tamale, was that stuff HOT! My poor mouth was up in flames!

I took advantage of my free time and listened to some music while I surfed the web: Nirvana, Blonde Redhead, David Bowie and even some Mary J. Blige were my soundtrack! I feel so grateful for all this time I have to myself that I am absolutely basking in my freedom. It is almost hard to believe that I am going to feel that way tomorrow as well. Yes!

I snacked on a slice of Ezekiel toast with peanut butter and an apricot. I used to eat 7 apricots a day. I was so sad when they went out of season, but now that they are back… I am once again starting up my love affair with them!

My mom and I decided to start watching the After Dark “8 Films to Die For” movies again today so we went to the video store to rent one of them. Tonight’s selection: The Hamiltons. I can’t wait to watch it! I’m going to have to call it a night on here though so I can start watching it. Mom is waiting for me in the game room! I’ll probably have a glass of milk and some cottage cheese with fruit before bed. I hope everyone had a great Friday!